"wasteland" lyrics

unreleased song which can be found on kitchendip.org.  i hope to maybe redo it someday with a different singer.

(verse 1)
shedded doubts that cloud my view
i don’t want to end up in your wasteland.
efforts just amount to blue
find myself defending all your statements.
way too many sounds removed
tryina sorta find out more of signs i saw and i ignored them all to make sense
break tension, get faded
sell out my beliefs and wishes.

(verse 2)
and i resist to see it

how many times can i misbelieve it?

treat it like its covert, missed the screening

cover up and clear out *blink* i’m dreaming

maybe i was idealistic

and me just being honest was enough to live with

you’re so gifted, mind brilliant even

that’s not even half, didn’t reach the ceiling.

i’d like to make the best impression

maybe then the conversations less depressing

then I wouldn’t even think to second guess it

few and far between that you’re blunt, confess it.

take this lesson, spread out inkblots

interpret how you wanted to with dented up think spots

versus any objectivity? I think not

every time it seems to be too much, you drink shots.

i’m hoping you received the reaction

you’re always looking for without directly asking

sentiments that sounded too vague to be passion

hesitated both ends, fated attraction

i was patient, now indecisive

ending every day when I close my eyelids

getting up the next when the soul arises /solar rises

without losing a step, you could see i’m blinded.

let it consume me, i’ll accept that

long as you remind me why we needed to step back

how it started off, we agreed to let go

but I haven’t forgot, even though i said so.